It's bizarre how our lives are all planned out, the way we're going to die is already written and boy I'm just dying to find out. I wish we could get sneak peeks of specific days of our lives so I could at least prepare for some of the shit. Somebody must know, I don't know if it's God or something but someone knows, someone is control of all of this and they're watching and laughing. Everything is surreal yet so real, it's a realistic illusion. What am I suppose to do with my life and what am I not suppose to do with it because I don't know where there hell I'm going. I'm really scared that I'm never going to figure things out and feel this confused forever. What's worse in all of this is that I may never be able to change anything because maybe my whole life is already planned out.